Sunday, November 07, 2004

Well, for those of you who don't know, I just recently moved to Tennessee to go to Technical School, which has been pretty fun so far ^_^ I just finished my first class last week, and will be starting my Computer Operating Systems and Forensics class on Monday, which should be pretty interesting because I really want to learn about computer crime and how to prevent it.

I currently have a job at FedEx Ground, which I'm kind of getting tired of x_x I work the Midnight shift from 10:30 pm to about 3:00 am as a Package Handler/Loader. The job is very physical, which is probably why I'm tired of it. I work for about 4 hours nonstop checking and loading packages for $9.50 an hour, and through all the backaches, and sore muscles, the paycheck of about $165 a week is not worth it.

So I have already applied for 3 other different jobs. The first one is a Data Entry job in Nashville, which consists of typing data into a computer, pretty easy I think lol ^_^ The second is a job at Dell being a Sales Representative, which is pretty much the guy you call to order a computer ^_^ And the third is a job at the Dell kiosk in the Opry Mills Mall selling Dell products ^_^ So hopefully I will be contacted about one of these jobs because getting scratched and cut every night at FedEx really hurts x_x

Another one of the reasons I came down here was to be with my girlfriend, now ex-girlfriend. After all I gave up and sacrificed to come here, I really have no reason to be here. But even though it is very hard on me, and has been for the past few weeks, I'm trying to get through it the best I can. This however changes nothing and I will continue to go through college in order to succeed for myself and my own future.

Hopefully the future will change for the better, just maybe. But until then, all I can do is wait and pray.

But since that happened, my roommate and his friend have been trying to get me together with this girl named Lacey. I met her and she is really nice, and really likes anime like I do, but she is pretty forward with what she says, which is kind of different for me. She comes over to my apartment every so often, and when she is over she will sit next to me and put her arms around me and hug me for the longest time ^_^ which is kind of cute at first, then she trys to get rough with me lol. Overall, she is a really nice girl, but sometimes she can be a little weird ^^; especially with the things she tries to do to me ^^;

Another interesting thing that has happened is that me and my ex ex girlfriend Lizzy have started talking again. We never really had a long relationship, which was my fault, and I really felt bad for what I did to her. She IMed me a few nights ago, and tonight we started talking again, which kind of made me feel better, especially with all the things that have been happening. We talked about what has been going on since we broke up. She told me that she had 2 other relationships after me and that they turned out bad because the guys would call her names and very hurtful things. She also told me that ever since we broke up she has missed me, and that she still loves me very much. I asked her why I'm so special compared to everyone else she has been with, and she said that I'm full of genuineness and love, which I thought was very sweet ^_^ soon after talking on the internet she asked me to call her and we talked for a little bit on the phone. I told her I might go back to Washington when I graduate school, but I'm not really sure yet since I have a lot of time until then. Lizzy will be going to college in Oregon in about 8 months, which is about a 2 and a half hour drive from where I lived in Washington. She wants me to go back to Washington when I finish school so we can be personal friends.

I know that Lizzy still loves me and wants nothing more than to be with me again. But I feel that in my condition, I'm not really ready for another relationship right now, and don't know if I will ever be. But if I ever feel ready for another commitment, then I will know that Lizzy will be there for me.

Well, I better go to sleep because I'm tired, and its about 5 am. I will write more later, but until then, good night ^_^



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